Devious Journal Entry

be me ,18, friends didn't have to repeat last year like i did. sudden realization that you are insignificant and your dependance on parents is ridiculously large. anxiety kicks in in a big way.become depressed start taking pills become depressed that i have to take pills. finish exams wonder what my future is realize future is to reap what i have just sown panic and become depressed lose all motivation. 

So er... what do i do now?